smthng spcl

"And im taking the long way out
Its gonna be something special to me"
My favorite boys.
``[FAN JIN WEI]

*u like wat show?
Azlin Mrn; says:
*on tevee?
``[FAN JIN WEI]`` says:
*yep
*i mean anyshow
Azlin Mrn; says:
*cartoons!
*(:
``[FAN JIN WEI]`` says:
*hahax
*u so childishDid he just say i was childish?
Kids nowadays, hmm.
O_o

Last week was pretty hectic. Ive been keeping this at the back of my mind lately, that sometimes your closest friend is your greatest enemy. The signs are starting to show. Hmm.. And being attacked twice this week for something i didnt even wished for; plus two additional goodbyes; too much for me to handle. Saturday is the only day i look forward to now. And have you noticed? Its August already! *gasps*

wdnsdys lrh

I realized what i blogged about was wrong and that it was only in a moment of angst. I know you love me. I know youre doing this for my own good. Ill behave, i promise. For now at least, heh. On another note, things are not as messy as it used to be and im glad it somehow turned out well. But, i seem to be neglecting and paying less attention over on the other side. How?

lv hgh

Dearest father,
your little girl isnt that little anymore. She is already twenty and is turning twenty one in ten months time. I know what i should and shouldnt be doing and if i have cross the lines. I dont know why youve been acting this way lately but i just cant seem to stand it. And to be honest, its really irritating and you shouldnt be taking over Mother's job. It just doesnt seem right, well at least to me.

And then it'd makes life simpler. Dont you think?

chngs and rsks

Things change. Plans change. People change. I change. So do you.
And we hardly noticed.

I dont know if the change might be something good or bad.
And i dont know if im able to accept and live with the change.
I think too much that i cant help but to think about what or how others will perceive it or if theyre willing to live with the change as well.
But if i dont try, i dont know.
And i dont know if i dare to take the risk.
And if im able to handle the change.

What i do know, i too deserve to be happy. Selfish much?

dp dp thghts, oth

"I should be stronger than this, you know, I should and I don't want to be a person that needs help, but I... feel all alone.

Perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think about us in return."

grlfrts and hywr

"not gonna lie or even try

youve got my wheel spinning
and i aint the one to shoot the gun
cause that means you will be winning"
-Alesha Dixon

i dnt wnt to go thrgh anthr

My eyes are pricking with tears.
I feel like im in a turmoil.

Save, me.

& whn th strs fll

Dear Phirry
By the way, the first time when i got to know your nick was Aeriel, i thought you stole it from one of Disney's Princess Little Mermaid Ariel. Heh. This is specially for you because i am sweet and you claimed that im the best (HAHAHA!) also because you requested for a get well entry. Eh, when are you passing me my wayoverduebelated birthday present!? Okay, seriously now.

Get well soon please. We'll pray for your speedy recovery. :)

Ohoh!
Impromptu lunch session with Hida this afternoon. Azlin Mrn likes this! She also wants who Hida met and what she rode later in the evening! ^^ And then gathering with the girls next week; yeayness!&& ive gained kilos which is saddening really. :( Youll be surprised when youve bkdot. I hope its something sweet and that youll like it. Haha.

a lttl smthng

"And i do not know where does it go. When it does suddenly though, everything's slow."
-Regina Spektor

smbdy sht me

Its not that i dont want to.
Its just that i cant bring myself to.
I dont know why, i really dont.

smthngs nt rght

Of lazing around on a wet Sunday afternoon and procrastinating on my given assignment accompanied with a bad cough;

"I want to be in love. I want to wake up next to someone and see them smile, do the whole Sunday breakfast thing, go out and get the paper, stay in bed together all day."

"I think your heart grows back bigger ya know, once you get the shit beat out of you. And the universe lets your heart expand that way, cause thats the function of all this pain and heartache that you go through and you gotta go through that to come out to a better place ."
-Must Love Dogs

hppy brthdy drst one

Dearest Amelia Syamin
its your birthday tomorrow. Youre turning a year older; a year wiser i hope. Youve grown oh so much. And i wouldnt want to trade you, for anything/anyone else other than you to forever be my little sister in the world.Thank you.
For youre the only one who has been tolerating my unpredictable mood swings. For covering me up when i stay out late at night. For the countless of times that i make you stay up late just to look at me from home when i come back from work or anywhere else. For helping me to check if my eyeliners and outfits are good for the day. For always comforting and ensuring me that its okay that i have got flaws and you love me still no matter what. For all the other everyday things that youve done, really. I am very grateful and thankful for having to be bless with a sister like you.

Theres only this one small favor that id like to ask of you.
And that is to study and do really well for your big O's. I dont want to see you fall and be a loser just like me. I dont want to see you shed tears of regret and disappointment. I would really want to see your shed tears of joy and happiness instead that youve put through so much the past and months nearing. InsyaAllah. And when you do, i want to be there to hug you tight, sharing your joy. I would like to see you go far in life. Help me fulfill this small favor will you, please? Since i wasnt able to do this for the parents.

Lots of love and sneezes,
Azlin

Ive been sneezing a lot and my throat is really sore. Love sick?